The title pretty much sums up how I feel right now. This Saturday, I'm going to have to take my dog to be put to sleep. Right now I don't know if I'll be able to do it.
He started having seizures about 2 months ago, and he's just gone downhill quickly. Now he just lays around the house when he's feeling OK. But when he has a seizure, he is paralyzed for up to an hour afterwards.
I don't know if I'm writing this to convince myself that what I'm doing it right, or just to put my feeling down. I know it may seem corny to some, but he's my first born. I had him from the time he was 6 weeks old, and 6 years is too short a time to have spent with him.
I just don't understand why this had to happen to him. He was fine, and the BOOM, he's having seizures and just seems to get more and more lethargic each day. The worst part is that there is nothing that I can do for him. Sure I can get thousands of dollars of test done, but most likely all they will find.... is that there is nothing that I can do for him.
I just love him... and I'll miss him so much.
